It All Comes Around In The End

My husband was on a retreat in a remote part of Texas some hours away.

My dad and his wife were camping in Corpus Christi a few hours south of me.

I had three kids all to myself on that fall weekend...Two years ago...

It changed my thinking and rocked my world in a way I never thought it could.

Now I can reflect, be thankful, and know that even though "bad things happen", God is not only in control, He loves and cherishes His children so a greater good comes out of everything.

Here's how it all comes around:

Earlier that month, God spoke to mine and Jason's heart in promising us one more baby to our number. Specifically a boy. We were anxious, excited, and just waiting....

On that Saturday morning, I woke up thinking I had apendicitis (it hurt that bad). I went to an urgent care clinic that was open on Saturday, just wanting anyone to help me. Julianna was 6 months, Jenna was almost 2, and Josh had just turned 3.

We were there for HOURS (literally). I was informed that I was pregnant and had IBS and my body was "aborting the baby". I had had a miscarriage before. This was not right....at all. Apauled at this result and his unwise choice of words, after being sent  home, I went to the internet for more information. I'm glad I did.

It is now around 5:00 pm and now the pain is in my scapula (shoulder blade) and I knew there was something wrong. I called a good friend of ours over to watch the kids. I have the most wonderful OB, as she had given me her cell number from when I had Josh and she had become a special part of our little family. She was at dinner, and immediately admitted me through emergency to check herself.

Next thing I know, I am alone.

In a hospital without my kids.

Without my husband.

Without my parents.

I was wisked away and told so many things and hooked up to various devices. Jason was on his way, he got there in time to give me comfort before my emergency surgery.

I had an ectopic pregnancy that had caused my tube to rupture inside my abdomen. I was bleeding for at least four days. I will never know how far along I was. I will never know or get to see the baby that "could have been" until I get to heaven.

But God still worked a miracle.

My OB said that my blood had somehow managed to clot INSIDE my body....where there's no oxygen...(Miracle #1)

She said that if I had waited until the next day, I would not have survived. But I did.... God has a plan for me and my family (Miracle #2)

We were informed that it would be more difficult to have children due to the fact that she had to remove the entire right tube. I was also considered "high risk" because even though I had NONE of the risk factors before, now that I had one ectopic, I was 30% more likely to have another one. But God is bigger.... I KNEW I was pregnant before any blood test showed it, or any pregnacy test picked it up. I was told 4 times that we weren't, but I knew.... And we were (Miracle #3)

At our first ultrasound, Joshua told the technician that his baby brother was in "mommy's tummy". She of course replied with - it's too early. To that he said "Nope, I prayed for a baby brother and God told me."

Jayden Christopher was born - November 16th 2011. EXACTLY 13 months to the day from where we started. Jayden is "God's promise" and he makes our family complete now :)