1st Trimester Update

I really am not showing that much, it was the pants button sticking out....LOL

We've finally reached the end of the first trimester and I will have to say it's been a rough ride. I guess I was spoiled with my last three being easier and not having to deal with morning sickness or anything really. This time.... not so much. Let's just say brushing my teeth made me sick :( 

But - the light in all this??

I really had to learn to apply Proverbs 3:5,6 - "Lean not on your own understanding, but in all your ways awknoledge Him and He will direct your paths".

There were days where I am sure the kids watched cartoons and movies all day. There were days where I had to pull over because I didn't want to get sick in the car. There were days that all I could do to keep my eyes open was feel like a zombie. But God heard my cry for strength each and every time I cried out to Him. So why didn't I do it more often? Maybe because when things start going well, we do tend to think we got this. How quickly we forget where we've been and who got us out of where we are.

All I know is that without God the road through the first trimester could have been SO much worse! I did have some awesome days where I felt like myself and I could get so much done and play with the kids. I am definately looking forward to more of those days as I move into the "honeymoon" phase of this journey.

I did get to see the little bean yesterday at my monthly doctors visit. It is growing right on track and even "waved" at us during the ultra sound. We still have no names yet, although I think once we find out the gender we will be able to narrow down some choices.

Baby "waving" hello

God is so good and the road He's set before us has been good. He never said it would be easy, but He did say that He would give us strength for each new day. And that He has - whenever I've asked for it.

Don't forget the road you've been on and how you've traveled to where you are now. Look back and remind yourself of the goodness of God. It shines bright in the dark.

7 = Perfection

A week or so ago I had a strange dream. I dremt that we were going to have 5 kids. It was one of those dreams in which you feel like it is real. I remember arguing with God over this (like I can even argue with Him, anyways?!). I remember telling Him that I REALLY don't want any more kids - I am content with four - and it's an even number. I remember going through all the logical reasons as to why we can't have another one....

• our truck seats six, not seven
• we gave ALL our baby stuff to others in need
• four is a nice, even number - no one is left out on a roller coaster
• Life is good, comfortable, and pleasant right now

As I was trying to talk some reason in to God during my dream, He reminded me that His plans are bigger than mine, and what if...just what if.... this child was the one that God used to bless our family because we were able to TRULY trust in Him and not lean on what we "know" or "think we know".....

He had a point there. I did feel prepared with the other four and isn't always loke God to bring you WAY out of your comfort zone to show you how much more YOU can actually do?? And the blessings that come from FAITH and stepping out in trust!!!

So, I woke up and chalked my dream up to an "ok God, you've got my attention - I will trust what ever plans you have for us."

I didn't think He was serious....

Here's the irony in all of this. Not only did I have a dream about this, but then later that week, a friend of mine came up to me during our youth group and asked me if I was pregnant. I know people kind of expect it from us, but I thought to myself - "I am never wearing this shirt again!"

Then on Thursday, I made an appt. with my OB for my yearly appt. She is AMAZING, and so she's usually booked 6 months + in advance. The nurse there said they JUST had a cancellation and that I can come in in the beginning of June... Cool! Little did I know that the appt. would be for a different reason.

So, yes, you've probably guessed - we are going to become a family of seven. It's an excited, scary, awesome journey that I can't wait to see play out.

Did you know that 5 means grace and 7 means perfection?? I can say that I feel our family will be complete!